Timing

I still ache at some choices I have made, especially in romance, when I have let go of people who I really loved or wanted to be with, but it just was not the right time… or time was telling me there were other priorities to take into consideration. We could only in our thoughts and dreams imagine a perfect present situation, that maybe had no breathable and livable future because so many variants were at play.

I sometimes analyze over and over again what it could have been like if I had just gone with it and let go of the other options or choices I followed. But still, I don’t think it would have worked out because I just was not in the headspace, I just did not have the time to heal, the stability to be, the confidence to let go, the time to mature and to process.

And when I was ready and came on full force, assertive about what I wanted, the situation was no longer the same. The feelings may have been there from both sides, but new elements had to be taken into consideration, and what we once both wanted no longer fit into our life plans.

I can only trust these lessons, embrace the experience and live without regret.